hindsight

what is it about hindsight that demands our gratefulness?

i used this very idea today when chatting to a friend

i know its not at all settling to have it said to you

in fact it can be really irritating

particulary when you're in the midst of the storm

but you know its true!

 some hindsight from my past...

i'm now thankful that i had an incompetent leader  

one factor in my 

decision making to resign from teaching way back

or perhaps i may still been there?

no one wishes to be the one not 'moving' forward

if that hadn't been then i may not have grown

i would never have worked for & with my father in his business

i would never have had the amazing sales

motivating leading business experience that is the great world of Tups

or those precious friends i have because of it all

i'm grateful for all those experiences

for teaching for small business & for design

& also we needed the 'no pressure' in our 'own time'

thing going on with all the ivf back then

that all would have been next to impossible if i'd still been teaching

in fact i was thinking that had we had a baby straight off the mark

way back then .... well we'd have a 10+yr old now

i'm sure our story would be very different

i doubt i'd be writing a blog

i doubt we'd have entertained moving countries

we'd most likely be still living where we were

& it was never quite the 'right' fit for me

so we probably would not have moved house

we wouldn't have the same 'in-common' connections with friends we do now

we've actually been in our new-to-us home

for 2 years now ... can't quite believe that!

that's half my blogging life ...

if we hadn't moved we probably would have 'moved-on' from ABC

it was starting to seem like that should be what came next

but you know ... God has it in his control

(doesn't seem like its a fair ride alot of the time!)

so with this hindsight

hmm ... well if we'd moved to a completely different suburb 

which was the intended

then our timing & refreshed efforts & contributions 

at ABC would not have been

so that would mean no Playful Market or "full circle"

nor would have a whole host of new friendships

prob no trip to Ambon or time doing Playgroup

we are so thankful for our enriched lives 

full of the thread of people intertwined

in the 'moving home' we were seeking some new adventure

re-starting somewhere we'd like to be for a long long time

settling into roots for Oscar & his education

community & friends

hindsight clicks over in the recesses of my thinking

it says ...."you see ...

the struggle to 'have'

what you think you are looking for

is not always the intended journey

looking back however it is often

what 'now' you realise

what was required ..."

so yeah enJOY your journey

those rolls of thunder make those sun shiny happy days

seem even more brighter