soul deep, reap, sow & sewn, blessed

 everyone feels loss

last week we said goodbye to a family member

the celebration was full of colour & great memories

it was an honor to have known her

in my first memories of her, she was a princess

the bride of my eldest cousin

she was someone with whom you could connect

in an honest 'true self' way
she was a woman who reaped what she sowed

no pretense or hiding behind histories & no games

just real thoughtful gracious caring heart-felt godly living

49 is too early when you look from the outside in

but she was ready to meet her maker

so many loved ones before her to greet her & welcome her home

& where she will revel in the celebration of her kingdom come

she has run the race & fought the good fight

she has kept the faith

God speed KGS

i choked & stumbled in my own humanity

in saying a humble goodbye

& watched in awe how her very near & dear

found such strength
A, R, M & E you are amazing
times at BH will always be cherished i am sure

so to this extended family of mine

who've 'had their moments'

let us get on with living

remembering & celebrating

but truly living ...

& to all my old & new friends
you are a gift in my life
treasured gold
lately i've been stuck with
a pounding in my ears ... 
in a mix of the good & not so 
of exhausted unnecessary energies,
sunshine-y days spent with toes buried in river sand & mud
that add up to the usual 
summer creative slump
(PS: i saw another sausage dog ... are they reminding me?)
& of course the loss of the above mentioned 
wonderful lady ...
but also grieving the
lost opportunities of family times 
that could have been
& i haven't been able to focus creatively
on what 're-charges' me!
have you noticed some silence here?
last night i was able to make a start
i turned my overflowing
fabric scrap box out on the table
& pieced (while at SAY) ... piece by peace!
i see a kind of symbolism here:
in the taking the parts of the old
& making them into something new
it was good
today is a new day

music always swells my emotion & often surfaces 

the essence of my thoughts in words 

that i can't perhaps voice on my own

here's a current favourite verse

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown

Edit: a great post over here all about KGS

Thanks for sharing Meridith